I have always been one to do things on my own.
It was never… like myself to depend on someone for things that I know I can get
on my own, and honestly I have always gotten what I wanted. I look at my life
and think yes I have had a very successful and happy life. I still have a
successful and happy life. But if you were to ask me that question 2 years ago
I would have said “no I am miserable because I can’t have children”. I am happy
to declare that my poor attitude is gone and I have been able to adopt a better
and happier one. Let me tell you how this happened…
I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and
I will say that I attribute most of this lifestyle change to it! So if you are
reading this please don’t turn this off because you are not religious or you
are not a member of this church. Because that doesn’t matter! All that matters
is what I did to change my attitude. I made a list and thanked my Heavenly
Father for the good things that I did have in my life. Yes a child is not a
part of it but I have such a wonderful husband who loves me and would die for
me if he had to. I live in a home that is so beautiful and perfect for us right
now, we have caring family who pray for us daily, we both have steady jobs that
make it possible for us to pay for invitro and have the means to fundraise for
invitro, we live in a beautiful and free country. Yes we have so much to be
thankful for and I believe that EVERYONE takes so much for granted. If everyone
could just look at the good things that they do have in their life, man what a
wonderful world this would be! So I challenge you to do this first step: make a
list of the good things in your life and think about them often. Thank everyone
for everything all the time.
The next thing I did to change my poor attitude about life and our
situation was letting others comfort me, and letting God comfort me. To this
day I thrive on allowing God to comfort me in all aspects of my life. Many
times prior to this change I was very bitter and never allowed my family or
friends comfort me when they tried. Now it is hard to let your walls down to
let people in but let me tell you it is a wonderful thing. The day we decided
to share our story with the world was the day I let my walls down and received
so much love, comfort, and support from people who I haven’t talked to in 8-10
years! It was so overwhelming and I will say that it helped immensely with a
lot of the problems I was having. Its amazing what opening up and sharing
yourself with others can do.
I read a scripture one night that overwhelmed me
and finally put me over the edge into the true joy and happiness zone. It is 2
Nephi 32:8-9. It reads, “ 8 And now, my beloved
brethren, I perceive that ye ponder still in your hearts; and it grieveth me that
I must speak concerning this thing. For if ye would hearken unto the Spirit
which teacheth a man to pray, ye would know that ye must pray; for the evil
spirit teacheth not a man to pray, but teacheth him that he must not pray.
9 But behold, I say unto you
that ye must pray always, and not faint; that ye must not perform any thing
unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall pray unto the Father in the name
of Christ, that he will consecrate thy performance unto thee, that thy
performance may be for the welfare of thy soul”.
Prayer is a very important part of my life. Without it I cannot
thank my Heavenly Father for the good things in my life and I cannot ask him
for comfort on that days when I really need the comfort, which is more often
than not. If you do not pray
please I urge you to try because it opens doors for happiness and gladness. It
truly is an amazing thing. These are few and simple things but they have helped
me and I know it will help you too.
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